1st Of Oct

Sleepless day......

Now 5.50am, i already woke up because of uncertain reasons
Maybe because of used to the time to wake up early to study during this exam period
Yesterday, few hours ago....i have done my last paper in my uni life
Well, a memorable day for me...
It is very hard to describe the feeling of it..
The feeling of--I'm gonna leave this place where i had stayed for five years
This place brings lots of memories to me
The place where i learn, spend time with friends
The place where i gained my social experiences, happiness, sadness
I have go through everything with the power of encouragement form myself
Yen Nee, you can.....Don't give up~~
Fight for yourself, fight for family, fight for the aim you come to this place
Don't disappointing anyone included yourself...

Yesterday, 30th of September.....Few hours ago
I have got my answer, I'm release from all my suspicious
I'm brave enough to take the 1st step~~
At least, i wouldn't bring any unwanted
~not necessary question without answer to my future
It's the time to look forward, Yen Nee~~The new chapter of your life

Countdown the day i left in Melaka, It is not more than 72 hours
Thanks for whom brings me happiness, sadness
unforgettable memories, the nice feeling of playing togather
the moment that enjoyed togather.....Thanks a lot!!
Today, another new day for me.....
I wish that, all of us can gain a better life after this
No more hates and only love in our life~~~

Cheers~
6.19am--- The end of the story~

忐忑不安的心情

还剩下一个学期就可以正式告别大学生涯了
心情是还蛮复杂的
不安稳的感觉是如此的难受
受训的地方是大概的定下来了的
可是还不100% 肯定~~
踏入是社会大学的日子一天天地靠近了
是时候认真了，机会是给有准备的人的
疯狂的时段已过~必须接受现实的
虽然还不想长大
但是时候为自己负责，为家人付出
你是行的！！万岁。。。。。

新的一年

刚刚过完新年，新的一年了
除旧迎新，去年不好的一切都应该通通抛向后头
今天是开学的第一天，应该把自己充电至满。。。向前冲啊！！！！
珍惜自己现在所拥有的一切，努力充实自己
准备踏入社会。。。
感觉自己已经看开了咯！
要跟自己讲加油！加油！加油！

祝福

一切都结束了
是时候回到正轨上了
向前看，人生才会活得更潇洒
前面的路有一万种可能，可别为了一种可能而放弃全部
想对你说：你的微笑就是我的幸福！！
希望你能幸福~~祝福你！

给朋友们的一封信:

我每每自问我是否是一个很好的朋友？
每次总觉得自己做的太多，有时不是每个人都能接受我所付出的
心里的苦有谁懂？？那股该有的热诚已消失的无影无踪.........
剩下的就是那无谓的 "做好自己本分"
一直一直到最近的最近，我才发现原来我是一个很冷很冷的一个人
因为实在是太多太多不好的评语，一样的评语围绕着我
~冷的实在可以~也就等于没有心.......
一个没心肝的人，枉为人！
我想借此机会向被我忽视的朋友说声 ‘对不起’
在这里也需要感谢一个人
是他让我看清楚一切
我总不能一直用自己的观念套用在别人身上，一切都将会得到反效果
甚至会让自己失去朋友
我再也找寻不到属于自己的辩白而告诉自己并没有错
我真的错了！
倔强的我认输了~~
改变是我唯一能做的，希望一切都不会太迟
找寻回那该有的热诚~~
我真的很需要时间去找回那属于我的热诚......

Sorry~

I just wanted to say sorry to u....
if i really irritated, say sorry to you here~~
All i wanted to do is trying to protect my friend
i was just an idiot, please forgive me...never follow what my heart wants~
i wanted to help but seem likes burden you.........
i just don't want you to lost someone who is important to you..
So so so so so so sorry......
i will keep a distance with you.......
Hope u know appreciate the one you love...~~

包容~原谅

长大了
是时候学习着去包容~学着去原谅
毕竟，这世上有千百万中不一样的人
每个人的思想都是由他们自己的故事，环境所建立而成的
正所谓“一种米养百种人”
每个人的立场，思想，坚持都不可能百分之百完全一样
人与人的相处，沟通要是能互相地包容，迁就---磨擦自然而然就会减少
再来，学会了包容那么原谅呢？？
这问题可是伤脑筋~
如何去重新接纳回一个曾经伤害过你的人呢？
--深思--

想哭~

真的很想很想大声地哭出来
最近的我实在是被拉扯到非常紧崩，仿佛一拉就要断了
我完全不能掌握一切，就像身在占板上任人宰割
感觉真的好辛苦！！！！
我真的不能释怀~~
谁可以救救我？？
折磨人的一个学期
脾气也变得非常非常暴躁
噩梦又要上演了。。。。。。
不能自我~~

属于我的童话世界

开心与不开心在于一线之差
人越长越大了，难免会越想越多
顾虑也太多～
何时才能学会用我的心去包容不完美的一切呢？
世界的一切也不过如此吧了。。。。。。
现实的世界～残酷的世界
请留给我一个小小属于我的童话世界吧！
我只需要一个能将心比心的世界吧了。。。。
或许要求太多倒不如去符合？？
一切随缘。。。。。知足常乐！！
笑＾＾

libary life...09/10

hahaha.....
Since when i so addicted libary life??
I think the start of 1st midterm paper....taxation
This sub i can't handle myself, even ask lecturer oso same as never ask.....-.-
So, study group has formed!!
Although gossiping more than studying....but at least i can gain some understanding from my frens
well....such a bz started dy
we still hae a long long way to go....think so ard 8-9 months
That time we gonna end our delta life=libary life...
GO~GO~GO~
qy, yl, sz, yr, wq, samson& chia wei(new added study groupmates)
Delta life=Tough life=Libary life........
LET'S ROCK N ROLL!!!
Libary---->we love u!!muaksssss.........

Only fri3ndshIp stands for3v3r~

Just now, my frren told me that she was break v her bf
Hmm.....it is quite sad when i get to know this news
But, both of them oledi no feeling towards each other dy....break peacefully
What a sad news!!!
For me....i prefer the relationship will last forever...haha, outdated thinking
out~out~out~
Rather to stay at the fren stage instead of going fruther??
I would like to say YES!!!
Only frenship will stay forever....
Hmm....once best fren's relationship has changing, there will only two stories will started
Couple story and another one.....losing one good fren forever~
Izzit worth??
Sad memories.....forever n ever~~

conclusion: only friendship stands forever!!!

压力~

压力。。压力。。压力
压的我真的不能正常呼吸
知道自己即将踏入社会工作了
知道自己并不能象以前那样。。。
必须更认真～必须更努力
不能象坐不定小孩了
长大真的需要很大很大的勇气
同样的爱也需要很大很大的勇气
有心理准备面对未来～那么爱呢？？
失去了那该有的勇气
是懦弱？还是逃避？
没有勇气去承受责任。。。。。。。
害怕且期待～～
加油！！ =）

生活的改变

最近生活改变了许多
宿舍里冷冷清清的，在也没有像以前那么地热闹了
有一点点不习惯～～～唉！！
同时也慢慢地跟同科系的朋友越混越熟了
这可为塞翁失马焉知非福！！
这个学期感觉还蛮压力的，最后的第二年了
再加上这个学期的老师还蛮 jialat
看来不能依赖他们太多了，要不然就危险了！！
这次回到来这里，心里还一直想着家里
果然，我真的没有看起来的那样独立。。。唉！
善于把自己真正性格，弱点藏起来。。。让别人模不透，看不着
是为了保护自己吧！！
这个星期日就是父亲节了。。。好想好想说声
爸，父亲节快乐！！

Scuba diving trip-episod 1

Its been few days after final dy.....OMG!!!
The two diving manual i didn't touch at all....TT
Reaching the day soon........
Sunday,12pm....gather at mmu roundabout
Well, it is the time to take off lur....yahoo!!hmmm....feel so uncertain n execited!!
After duno how many hours,here we reach the jeti

~Jeti Penumpang Jabatan Laut mersing Johor~

At the jeti....waiting time...sien@@

Yeah...the boat was reaching dy..at last!!!Phew.....
But it is not end yet...another four hours on boat
i juz keep on sleep on the boat oni...n of cos dun forget to take photos..hoho!!
4 hours~~such a long journey -.-

Wuahaha!!i look more lady in this pic....hehe!!

'lang hua'

Three of us....on the boat~

Let's introduce a bit about this island....
The photo will show u how nice it was,i would like to keep quiet...keke!!

Our resort...seem like the only resort on the island,i think..hmm....

Sunset view....nice!!! I love this one...muahahha!!

From the hill side's view

Beside the island...there are a few nice rock

After 4 hours, at last we are there.....
dark~dark~dark..
not really can see the water clearly,oni know the water was quiet clear
That time i was totally awake dy....
we are given a small briefing by cyber n mlk president
Self introduce also:)
After that,we are require to fill some forms....after that we are divided to two groups
so,me n shu yong--nizam ppl....kesian yk.....divided to other group--nick ppl
There are total 10 ppl taking license,5 from cyber--5 from mlk
Hmm.....some graduate dy,one chinese gal from UM....
So....there we are...
Can't wait to tomolo dy le lor.....hohohoho!!!

Everybody was filling forms...

To be continued>>>>>

Nothing

更改了。。。终于
心情也没舍特别
或许早应该更改的吧！！那才不会一直地为自己找藉口
星期一，就要开课咯！！
有那么一点点不想回去因为要离开我的宝贝电视
这几天，有在想想自己未来的去向
该往哪里发展呢？？是应该要开始认认真真去想了
一年的时间，参考参考亲戚的意见再下决定吧！！
亲戚们好像都已经计划好好要参加‘我的毕业典礼’
听起来还真压力。。没到最后一分钟，我也难保能不能顺利毕业 phew...
看来一定要更加努力了～～
虽然，新学期的科目实在是‘有够吸引的’ (=.=')
但，还是得努力努力！！！

第一次

该怎么开始呢？

我终于做到了！！虽然，还蛮勉强的。。。。

想不到已困扰我多年的小毛病而使到我的耳朵难以跟外来的环境取得平衡

耳朵实在是痛！！脚也满是疤痕。。。但是，一切都是值得的

一直想要的东西，总是要有一些代价来换取吧！！

终于得到，也害怕自己不适合

有时会想想，真得值得吗？再看看家里的状况。。过意的去吗？

值得的！！！只要把我的小毛病医好就行了～只要努力奋斗（成绩）～

接下来，我必须做的是努力把最后两年书读好

如真的能把小毛病医好。。。那就继续升级吧！！

要下去的那一杀那。。非常痛苦

当在下面的时候。。是无比的兴奋～快乐！！

~open water and advance open water certified diver~

---No p@in, No g@in---@@

害怕

很害怕睡醒后的感觉
总是那么地不踏实
感觉一睡醒，爱的人全部都会消失掉
已经有好几次这种感觉了
以前，有发过几次还蛮恐怖的梦
一起身，全世界的人都消失了。。。只剩下我一个
不停的寻找我身边熟悉的人
不停不停的找寻。。。。。。
一个都找不到，酱我就被吓醒了
最怕发酱的一个梦
鬼梦还没那么怕
事实证明了，我是缺乏安全感的人
不敢爱～～害怕失去！！

安静的力量

一个笨的人才会把自己的底牌让给人家看
一个笨的人才会讲真话
一个笨的人才会对所有人没有防备之心
是时候学学安静的力量～在对的时候讲对的话
没必要不需出声
所谓的朋友就是在你最难过的时候踩多你一脚
体谅人谁又会体谅你？？
‘天真’ 这个字不能再用在这个现实的社会了
为了不要再受伤害～必须要好好的保护自己
你当人家是朋友～人家未必当你是朋友
好好的享受安静的力量

Again...

Why i so care about how people look at me?
Act as what people can accept?what people expect?
I'm tired of it already
I'm just trying my best to perform one job only..
OK..i think i had my fault also..
So, i must change...
not kid anymore...fren doesn't mean anything!!!

Supp Again

How am i suppose to decribe my feeling again?
Useless?Hopeless?Dissapointed?
Swear: No supp in my life again~